I Like Boys Who Like Boys

I don't know what to blame this on. My slight, sociological rebellion? My lack of exposure to different things? I have no idea but I love gay men. I have been in love (legit, in love) with gay men. And I know I'm not the only one. There's a book about it: Girls Who Like Boys Who Like Boys

A while ago I saw an episode of Tyra and she had these two girls who, just like me, we simply fascinated with gay men. They even sometimes wish they were gay men. OH MY GOD, ME TOO! Hear me out: I don't want to get a sex change but if I could be reborn as a gay man, I think I would do it. I know, so weird. I can't even explain it.

Now, I'm hardly a sexual person. I can't even fake anything. I'm just like, Ew, please get away from me. Don't even look at me. I blame that on attempted incest but it's just an excuse. But now that I think about it, I walked in on my dad naked once when I was somewhere between 3 and 5. I am now going to blame it on that. (Appendages?! On the OUTSIDE?!) But, by george, gay sex is like the greatest thing since sliced bread. And it doesn't even have to be sex- they can just make out. it's great. It makes me throw up in my mouth to see heterosexual hook ups but guy-guy, (sometimes girl-girl) that is my stuff right there.

Yesterday, while flipping through the channels, I discovered the best thing since gay sex since sliced bread. Are you ready for it? A heterosexual that does gay porn?! Zues and Hera- I was ready to like die and go to heaven. His name is Aaron James and he is officially the hottest guy in the world. Not because of his looks (even though he is good looking) but just for the fact that he sleeps with guys but isn't gay. He is the answer to my prayers. I love the fact that he is SO comfortable with his sexuality. Even when he's not filming, he hangs out with the guys, who are all gay. I was getting hot just seeing him hug them goodbye. Please, someone find me a straight guy (not in theatre) who is THAT comfortable with gay guys. It's incredible.

Or maybe I'm just really naive. God, I hope not. I'm always so naive about these things. But, anyways, Aaron James, PLEASE call me. I love you.