Here I Come 2009!

Well 2009 has crept up pretty fast! Do you agree? I figure I better set some New Year's Resolutions that I'm not going to follow through with.

1) In 2009 I resolve to not be afraid to fall in love.

I know, that's lame and emo but you'd understand if you saw how fast I start running in the opposite direction when The Boy says any sentence with the words "in love". Scary words!!!! Oh yes, he has said that he's in love with me. Then for the most part I freak out (except for that one time where I was "flattered". I was though.) He won't say anything about it for like months, then he tries again. I'm still programed to freak out. I'm almost positive that I have control over this reaction? lol So for 2009, no more freaking out. I can handle this like a normal person.

2) In 2009 I resolve to be more independent.

True facts: I don't have a car, I can't even drive, I can't cook to save my life... um, what else? In 2009 I need to learn how to actually cook so I can stop eating pre-cooked things. I'm pretty sick of hot pockets, hot dogs and chicken wings. I'm going to work on this car thing or at least buy some bus tickets.

3) In 2009 I resolve to not complain about my lack of money.

Since it's not 2009, here's my complaint: After paying rent I only had $80 left for 2 weeks. Somehow that's basically gone and I've had to dip into my Christmas money. I was definitely planning on buying myself something nice, like strings to play my violin. But now I have more bills and food to buy. SO, in 2009, no more complaints like that. There are people with families to support who have less than I have. I need to CUT IT OUT.

Speaking of violin strings....
4) In 2009 I resolve to start playing violin again.

It's just sitting under my bed doing nothing. I love that thing. I should start playing again. It's such a fantastic emotional outlet. I'm not the best but I do love it.

5) In 2009 I resolve to accept more opportunities.

That's right. Opportunity walks through the door and I just totally snub it. So far I've turned down manager jobs, scholarships, invitations, etc etc etc. I don't know what is wrong with me, do you? People would die for the things I've been offered. So, 2009, I will say "Yes" to more things! (Yes Man with Jim Carrey is a pretty good movie, by the way.)

6) I resolve to read more books and discover new music.

The very soul of my existence relies on stories and music. I have not been reading as many books as I would like to. I'm definitely not doing anything else so I might as well read. When I can afford it, I'll buy a new book or two. New music is always right around the corner. I have to give everything a chance and start filling up my music library!

Lastly,

7) In 2009, I resolve to write more.

What happened to the days when I would write 80 things at the same time? I've always wanted to be a writer. I was going to major in writing in college. Now, when was the last time I actually wrote something? I used to have such a passion for writing and I used to spend hours around the house planning, plotting and writing. There is a mountain of folders and notebooks under my bed waiting for my pen to touch them again. I may have to start with baby steps but in 2009, I will write many, many words.

Happy New Year, guys!